Thursday, February 16, 2017

Where did I belong?

 here in USA
in Hyderabad
In warangal
In chennai
in  tanjorwe
in  tinniyam
in millakudi
in Beemaram

the manufacture of desire-a more expensive restaurant, a finer suit of clothes, a more exclusive nightspot, a more beautiful woman, a more potent high.
like sex or violence on TV, black rage always found a ready market.

As it was, many had already given up the hope that politics could actually improve their lives, much less make demands on them; to them, a ballot, if cast at all, was simply a ticket to a good show.
I wondered whether he, too, felt a prisoner of fate.
 I changed as a result of that bus trip, in a fundamental way. It was the sort of change that’s important not because it alters your concrete circumstances in some way (wealth, security, fame) but because it hints at what might be possible and therefore spurs you on, beyond the immediate exhilaration, beyond any subsequent disappointments, to retrieve that thing that you once, ever so briefly, held in your hand.

 You got to be afraid of somebody who just doesn’t care. Don’t matter how young they are.”

No one here in Kenya would ask how to spell my name, or mangle it with an unfamiliar tongue. My name belonged and so I belonged, drawn into a web of relationships, alliances, and grudges that I did not yet understand.

 “That’s why Kenya, no matter what its GNP, no matter how many things you can buy here, the rest of Africa laughs. It’s the whore of Africa, Barack. It opens its legs to anyone who can pay.”


“You are probably right,” he said. “But you see, a rich country like America can perhaps afford to be stupid.”


“This is not a Masai belief,” he said, almost laughing, “this life after you die. After you die, you are nothing. You return to the soil. That is all.”   

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